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His essays in the S's are amazing. One is "Silvia" and the other "Sex."

His weighty, fantastic, slow, well considered Mexican intellectualism...touched by social issues, vibrant literary circles, throaty real sensuality, moonlit tequila...if you miss reading, thinking and feeling. Pick this book up.

I'm going to write my A-Z 2009 and put it into a slide show. Maybe if I do it every year, one paragraph of mine with carry the heart and mental athleticism one of his well placed words does. One day.

In Silvia he writes of the love he found with his wife.

"All that unites us and even those that might separate us, become a meeting point, question mark and in the end, alliance."

This work begins to answer some questions I have on death. Love. How to survive death, consider death, live with death. He lost his son.

In "sex" he spends a few sentences on a lover who killed herself. He spends more on describing the prostitutes and brothels of Mexico. Of beauty and loss. Of love temporary and loss embraced.

Apollonaire, he says, said some people die so we can love them.

A strange benefit in laying out next to the surf school is hearing East Coast Champ Jimmy B telling the kids to hang on. Keep on it. Get up. Telling them YES there are terrible squishy bitey things in the water, get back in it. Manage your board. Keep it up. You feel that...that (he says to a 8 year old that rides wave to the shore ) THAT'S what you're working for that GOOD FEELING. Now get back out there. See that, he says...in just doing a little everyday, look at what you can do now. And isn't it easier?

Sort of a free self help seminar.

Helps when reading that book on art licensing....I'm getting alot of that static about not being able to, can't...not my league...

And then I think ...Jimmy B would say manage my board. Get back in the water.

Cause you can't manage the sea, but you can learn to make your portion of it work better for you.

And it's going to hurt. That's what it is. You're not going for the NOT HURT, you're aiming for those moments of transcendence. Mastery. Where things work all at once together.

And if you're looking for a cleansing program...you'd be amazed how well beer and trailmix works. CLEANSING. For $3 ( I buy $ store trailmix ) you could feel very very renewed. If there's a toxin left in me, it deserves TO STAY.

I can relax because I have 10 places selling my work, some attached to some formidable sales persons who appreciate my work. I got an order online to do when I get back. I have 2 special orders I need to do, too. Tomorrow I'm passing out business cards in St. Augustine.

It is like grass growing, but sorry to disappoint you, growing the grass is far more lucrative and advantageous than smoking it. Wake in bake has a certain crusty deadend factor. But, I'm not inclined to give up beer for breakfast when I can manage it. Now that's...something I can WORK with.

I wish I could do tequila...but I don't consider tequila to be one of those liquors one drinks alone. It should have a party. It should have flow. There should be incidents to regret. Panties should be lost.