- I threw away the keys to my past this morning
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rhondak
- December 23rd, 8:39
I accidentally made 5 copies of a key to my old Siesta Key beach place and not my Casey Key beach cottage...which caused me to notice I had keys from about 4 years of places I never was going back to.
I sort of did a key throwing away voodoo spell to be thankful for those places, to be thankful they were closed doors to important life lessons and to make room on my key ring for more doors, more places and more rooms to love.
Despite some generally unpleasant nostalgia, I feel happy. Cold weather always reminds me of men who are no longer around.
But like the keys, none of them would have fit where I am or where I am going.
My one crush on the MAN WHO CUTS HIS SLEEVES out of his shirt has evaporated. I saw him down with a girl and another man at a bar. They were trying to "help her." Everytime she'd go to the bathroom they would talk about how she was dumb as a box of rocks and stupid to let people use her blah, blah, blah. In 30 minutes they had her diminished from a vibrant perky blond to honest to God with black lines under her eyes that looked like they'd punched her.
Words are like that.
I have had people try to "help" me out like that. It is odd how mad they get when you ask them to please stop helping you so very much.
At any rate, his appeal is from a good distance. He's a mean spirited man who knows everything. And he's married. And he likes to help a woman when she's down, particularly if he can run her down even further.
I ran into a student from school. He was taking his dog to eat at Orphelia's, too. Sadie developed a strange utter hatred for the dog and honest to God, I think she was ready to kick the dogs tush.
I've now run into 4 different sets of students at 4 very different places...which, honest, stresses me out. "Out here" -- I'm RhondaK. I don't like having my rum runner soaked moment of bliss interupted with .."you talked to my class..."
It takes away some bliss.
Though, I did use one incident to find out some good information on placing some Library Resources where students actually look.